Surrender

// Tracklist

1. Run the Red

   Midnight on the highway, headlights in my eyes Every sign is telling me to slow down, think twice But your voice is in my pocket saying come to me And I’ve always been the careful kind, never been free

   I know better, I know better But knowing doesn’t mean a thing

   I’m gonna run the red Every warning in my head Says stop but I can’t feel my brakes tonight I’m gonna run the red For the words you never said Crash into your arms and hold on tight Run the red, run the red

   Forty miles between us, I could make it in twenty-five Every second takes forever when I need you to survive My hands are shaking on the wheel but my heart is sure Some things are worth the reckless, worth the risk and more

   I know better, I know better But knowing doesn’t mean a thing

   I’m gonna run the red Every warning in my head Says stop but I can’t feel my brakes tonight I’m gonna run the red For the words you never said Crash into your arms and hold on tight Run the red, run the red

   Let them flash the sirens Let them chase me down Nothing’s gonna stop me From getting to you now

   I’m gonna run the red Every warning in my head Says stop but I can’t feel my brakes tonight I’m gonna run the red For the words you never said Crash into your arms and hold on tight Run the red, run the red

   Run the red, run the red Run the red

2. 3AM

   Blue light on the ceiling from my phone Scrolling through the pictures that you don’t know I saved Three AM and nothing feels like home Just your face in photographs from better days

   And I wonder if you’re sleeping Wonder if you’re dreaming about me Or am I just a memory you’re keeping Somewhere you don’t need to be

   It’s three AM and I’m still wide awake Tangled in these sheets that hold your shape Everything is quiet but my mind It’s three AM and you’re the only thing I find

   Typed your name eleven times, deleted every one What would I even say if you picked up the call The city sounds don’t cover what you’ve done Left me here with nothing but these walls

   And I wonder if you’re sleeping Wonder if you’re dreaming about me Or am I just a memory you’re keeping Somewhere you don’t need to be

   It’s three AM and I’m still wide awake Tangled in these sheets that hold your shape Everything is quiet but my mind It’s three AM and you’re the only thing I find

   Maybe I should close my eyes Pretend that I’m alright But even in my dreams you don’t stay So what’s the point of the fight

   It’s three AM and I’m still wide awake Tangled in these sheets that hold your shape Everything is quiet but my mind It’s three AM and you’re the only thing I find

   Three AM, three AM Still wide awake

3. Not Enough

   You give me Sunday mornings but I want the week Half a conversation when I need you to speak I’m standing at the table with an empty plate You say that you’ll be ready, tell me I should wait

   But I’ve been waiting, patient like you asked How much longer can this last

   It’s not enough, it’s not enough These little pieces of your love I need the whole thing, not the scraps you throw It’s not enough, it’s not enough I’m tired of almost, tired of us Either give me everything or let me go

   You text me in the evening but you’re gone by noon Give me just a sliver like a crescent moon I’m not asking for the stars, just asking for the truth Are you in or are you out, I need to know from you

   But I’ve been waiting, patient like you asked How much longer can this last

   It’s not enough, it’s not enough These little pieces of your love I need the whole thing, not the scraps you throw It’s not enough, it’s not enough I’m tired of almost, tired of us Either give me everything or let me go

   I deserve someone who stays Who doesn’t love in shades of gray So tell me now, make up your mind Or I’m leaving this behind

   It’s not enough, it’s not enough These little pieces of your love I need the whole thing, not the scraps you throw It’s not enough, it’s not enough I’m tired of almost, tired of us Either give me everything or let me go Let me go, let me go

4. Golden

   Morning breaks like honey, soft and slow You’re laughing in the kitchen, all aglow Coffee’s getting cold but I don’t care Just the way the light falls in your hair

   Never felt this warm before Never wanted something more

   You make everything golden Every single ordinary day When you’re here the world is open And I never want to look away Golden, golden You make everything gold

   We’re dancing in the living room, no sound Just us two, barely touching the ground Every little moment shines like gold This is everything I want to hold

   Never felt this warm before Never wanted something more

   You make everything golden Every single ordinary day When you’re here the world is open And I never want to look away Golden, golden You make everything gold

   I don’t know what I did right But I’m holding on so tight Just promise me you’re here to stay Please don’t let this ever fade away

   You make everything golden Every single ordinary day When you’re here the world is open And I never want to look away Golden, golden You make everything gold

   Golden, golden You make everything gold

5. Tell Me Twice

   You said you love me, whispered as you fell asleep A quiet little secret that I’m trying hard to keep Was it a reflex, was it real, did you mean what you said Or just the kind of thing you say before you go to bed

   I’m not trying to be needy I just need to know you see me

   Tell me twice, tell me again I need to hear it like it’s oxygen Say it slow, say it clear Until I finally believe that you’re here Tell me twice, tell me twice Make me believe it

   I know that I should trust the way you look at me But somewhere deep inside I’m still afraid you’ll leave So when you say those words, I hold them like a prayer But they fade so fast, I need to know you’re there

   I’m not trying to be needy I just need to know you see me

   Tell me twice, tell me again I need to hear it like it’s oxygen Say it slow, say it clear Until I finally believe that you’re here Tell me twice, tell me twice Make me believe it

   Maybe someday I’ll believe it Every time that you speak it But until that day just hold me close And say the words I need the most

   Tell me twice, tell me again I need to hear it like it’s oxygen Say it slow, say it clear Until I finally believe that you’re here Tell me twice, tell me twice Make me believe it

   Tell me twice, tell me twice Tell me twice

6. Dancing Alone

   Came here with mascara on, I know I’ll leave it smeared Strobe lights hit my face so all the pain just disappears The bass is in my chest where you used to be Found a spot between the bodies where I’m finally free

   Don’t need a hand to hold tonight Gonna lose myself in the flashing lights

   I’m dancing alone, I’m dancing alone Working you out of my bones Moving my body to forget what I’ve known I’m dancing alone, I’m dancing alone This floor is the only home I’ve got tonight

   Sweat is dripping down my back, I’ve been here for hours You’d hate this song, you’d hate this crowd, but I love the power Of moving like I don’t remember your name Every beat’s a little burial, letting go of the pain

   Don’t need a hand to hold tonight Gonna lose myself in the flashing lights

   I’m dancing alone, I’m dancing alone Working you out of my bones Moving my body to forget what I’ve known I’m dancing alone, I’m dancing alone This floor is the only home I’ve got tonight

   When the lights come up and the music dies I’ll walk into the morning light A little broken but alive I’ll be alright, I’ll be alright

   I’m dancing alone, I’m dancing alone Working you out of my bones Moving my body to forget what I’ve known I’m dancing alone, I’m dancing alone This floor is the only home I’ve got tonight

   Dancing alone, dancing alone I’m gonna be alright

7. Your Hands

   I wake up reaching for you in the dark Your shape in the sheets left a permanent mark The bed’s gone cold where you used to lay But I feel your hands like you never went away

   Memory is cruel like that Giving me what I can’t have

   Your hands, your hands I miss your hands on me The way they traced the lines Like you were reading poetry Your hands, your hands I close my eyes and feel Something that isn’t there But still feels so real

   You used to draw circles on my shoulder while we talked Now I draw them on myself when I’m lying in the dark Muscle memory of the way you held my face Nothing else has ever filled that empty space

   Memory is cruel like that Giving me what I can’t have

   Your hands, your hands I miss your hands on me The way they traced the lines Like you were reading poetry Your hands, your hands I close my eyes and feel Something that isn’t there But still feels so real

   I don’t miss your words, they were never enough I don’t miss your silence or when things got rough But the way you touched me, gentle and slow That’s the thing I can’t let go

   Your hands, your hands I miss your hands on me The way they traced the lines Like you were reading poetry Your hands, your hands I close my eyes and feel Something that isn’t there But still feels so real

   Your hands, your hands I miss your hands on me

8. Maybe Tomorrow

   We both know there’s something we should say But I don’t want to ruin this perfect day So we talk about the weather instead Leave the hard words buried in our heads

   The words are on the tip of my tongue But I swallow them back down one by one

   Maybe tomorrow, maybe tomorrow I’ll finally find the words to say Maybe tomorrow, maybe tomorrow But tonight let’s just pretend we’re okay We’re okay, we’re okay Maybe tomorrow

   You’re laughing at the TV, I’m laughing along Both pretending we don’t know that something’s wrong Every night we go to bed without a sound Hoping morning fixes what we haven’t found

   The words are on the tip of my tongue But I swallow them back down one by one

   Maybe tomorrow, maybe tomorrow I’ll finally find the words to say Maybe tomorrow, maybe tomorrow But tonight let’s just pretend we’re okay We’re okay, we’re okay Maybe tomorrow

   One more day of beautiful lies One more night of closing our eyes How many tomorrows can we borrow Before we run out of sorrow

   Maybe tomorrow, maybe tomorrow I’ll finally find the words to say Maybe tomorrow, maybe tomorrow But tonight let’s just pretend we’re okay We’re okay, we’re okay Maybe tomorrow

   Maybe tomorrow, maybe tomorrow We’re okay, we’re okay

9. Electric

   Saw you standing in the crowd Something hit me, hit me loud Not a word, just felt the spark Lightning cracking through the dark

   The air is thick, I’m holding my breath One step closer, nothing left

   Electric, you’re electric Sending shivers through my skin Electric, we’re electric Something’s pulling me right in I can feel it in the air Before we touch I know you’re there We’re electric

   You move closer through the crowd My heart is pounding way too loud Fingertips about to meet Feel the static, feel the heat

   The air is thick, I’m holding my breath One step closer, nothing left

   Electric, you’re electric Sending shivers through my skin Electric, we’re electric Something’s pulling me right in I can feel it in the air Before we touch I know you’re there We’re electric

   I don’t even know your name But I’m already going up in flames So strike the match and let it burn There’s no going back, no return

   Electric, you’re electric Sending shivers through my skin Electric, we’re electric Something’s pulling me right in I can feel it in the air Before we touch I know you’re there We’re electric

   Electric, electric We’re electric

10. Left on Read

    Three dots danced, then went away Sent my heart, began to pray Blue check shows you saw my text Still no answer, what comes next

    Maybe you’re busy, maybe you’re done Maybe I should just move on

    Left on red, left on red Running circles in my head Said too much or not enough Blue check mark but no love Left on red, left on red Overthinking what I said Was it something, was it nothing Now my heart is barely functioning Left on red

    Checked my phone a hundred times Started typing, crossing lines Maybe I should play it cool But I’m staring like a fool

    Maybe you’re busy, maybe you’re done Maybe I should just move on

    Left on red, left on red Running circles in my head Said too much or not enough Blue check mark but no love Left on red, left on red Overthinking what I said Was it something, was it nothing Now my heart is barely functioning Left on red

    It’s just a message, just a screen So why does silence feel so mean I hate the way you make me wait For one word that might come too late

    Left on red, left on red Running circles in my head Said too much or not enough Blue check mark but no love Left on red, left on red Overthinking what I said Was it something, was it nothing Now my heart is barely functioning Left on red

    Left on red, left on red Left on red

11. Close Your Eyes

    The room is getting darker but I don’t want the lights Just the sound of your breathing, just your warmth tonight Put your head against my chest, let me feel your weight Nothing matters past these walls, nothing else is awake

    You don’t have to say a word Every heartbeat’s being heard

    Close your eyes, close your eyes Let me hold you through the night No more armor, no more walls I’ll catch you if you fall Close your eyes, close your eyes Everything will be alright I’ve got you, I’ve got you Close your eyes

    I know you’ve been guarded, I know you’ve been burned But I’m not going anywhere, that’s one thing you’ve learned So sink into this moment, let your breathing slow There’s nowhere else I’d rather be, nowhere else to go

    You don’t have to say a word Every heartbeat’s being heard

    Close your eyes, close your eyes Let me hold you through the night No more armor, no more walls I’ll catch you if you fall Close your eyes, close your eyes Everything will be alright I’ve got you, I’ve got you Close your eyes

    In the silence I can hear Everything I hold so dear Your heartbeat steady, calm and true There’s no safer place than you

    Close your eyes, close your eyes Let me hold you through the night No more armor, no more walls I’ll catch you if you fall Close your eyes, close your eyes Everything will be alright I’ve got you, I’ve got you Close your eyes

    Close your eyes, close your eyes I’ve got you, I’ve got you

12. Surrender

    I’ve been holding on so tight, my fingers turning white Trying to control the way I feel with all my might But you crashed through every wall I’d ever come to know Left me in the rubble, happy to let go

    I’m tired of pretending I’m strong Tired of fighting what I’ve known all along

    I surrender, I surrender White flag waving in the wind I surrender, I surrender Let the breaking down begin Take all my armor, take my pride I’m laying down my arms tonight I surrender, I surrender to you

    Spent my life with armor made of steel But you make me want to close my eyes and feel Every battle I’ve been fighting I’m about to lose But losing never felt so right when I’m losing it to you

    I’m tired of pretending I’m strong Tired of fighting what I’ve known all along

    I surrender, I surrender White flag waving in the wind I surrender, I surrender Let the breaking down begin Take all my armor, take my pride I’m laying down my arms tonight I surrender, I surrender to you

    No more running from this feeling No more hiding, no more healing On my own, I’m on my knees This is where I’m meant to be

    I surrender, I surrender White flag waving in the wind I surrender, I surrender Let the breaking down begin Take all my armor, take my pride I’m laying down my arms tonight I surrender, I surrender I surrender, I surrender to you

    I surrender, I surrender To you